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ღ Wednesday, December 22, 2010

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Sad, Drunk, and Stone

I went Penang again past weekend, it was a 24hrs trip.

I was really blur when I was on my way there, no, I wasn't with Lily or Jess.

And so I got there by bus, waited at Queensbay for 2 hours with my heavy bags.
My friend's brother finally came and he brought us to this... romantic place...

I wish if I still have the chance to get married, I will still choose Penang to take wedding photos.... Take a look at the pics... =)

And they also have this machine to clean the sea...

And so the night comes, I decided to go club and get myself drunk... Off we go at 1am... Drank like train...

Don't asked me what happened that night cos it's not something really nice to share... =/

Christmas is around the corner, I'll be spending my eve lunch with colleagues, boss belanja German cruisine, dinner BBQ at friends' house (this friend specially organize xmas party for me at her house), then Xmas day, I'll be spending time with my beloved family....

Hope that you'll enjoy your Festive season too...!

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ღ Tuesday, December 14, 2010

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I'm okay I'm okay I'm okay...

I need to start acting like I'm all okay from now on...
Until the moment I really give up "entirely"...

Sorry if it's going to hurt anyone...

I guess, nobody understands myself better, and my decision is final...

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If Only You Handle This Better

"This" wouldn't be an option for me now....

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ღ Friday, December 10, 2010

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The 3rd Weekend

I'm emotionally very unstable... This moment I'm laughing, next you see me crying.

I hate this feeling right now.

I hate that you are doing this to me.

I hate being treated this way by you.

I just hate everything now.

Everything reminds me of you... And nothing at all reminds you of me... Nothing at all... Cos... You never love me at all... 12th March 2008... I wished I never let you hold my hands, I wished I never trusted you... I wish I never know you...

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ღ Thursday, December 09, 2010

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All about "Seperation"
As if it's not enough, Maxis made it like a divorce-ceremony.

I called to inquire about seperating the account of my number from his line.

This CS girl got it wrong and thought I wanted a seperate bill... She asked me to hold on while she called him for verification.

And the girl came back to the conversation saying that if I confirm to seperate, I agree to cancel the free calls and sms'es within my number and Mr. Kong's number. I said "Yes... by all means, get it done asap, thanks"

Then I confirmed with her "Oh wait, why did you guys ask us to go to Maxis Centre when it is actually not necessary?"

CS girl "Oh... that's to remove your number from Mr. Kong's line and transfer it under your name"

Me "Precisely what I want to do!!"

CS girl "Then you'll both need to come to our Maxis Centre to do this..."

Me "God... "

CS girl "Ms. Penny, do u confirm that you want to do this? There'll be no free calls and sms'es not even discounts calling between you and Mr. Kong from there on"

Me "I'm good about it, thanks bye"

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2010 Resolutions 8/15 Fulfilled

(birthday post below, scroll down)

1. to let my nails to take a breather after 3 years of OPI colours... OMG 3 years already, cannot believe it how fast the clock ticks away.

Yes, fulfilled this, my nails are now short and unpainted...

2. to really really cut that 5kg down, fml.

No, not done yet! Lost 2kg in past 2 weeks because of you.

3. to have more activities in my MID 20's... seriously... I need to party and get wild before I'm sitting there being called auntie... fml man.... MID 20's???????? Shit... Get me the bird nest now now now!!!! I wanna go travel!!!! Seriously...

Yes, party'ed, and travelled with Kevin to Melaka, and friends to Penang twice.
4. to live happily everyday.

No
5. to have changes at work in order for me to stay longer or #6

Yes
6. to find a better job, with better environment, better people, better pay, better benefits and more professional job in a bigger company, MNC please.

No, not yet
7. to take up the language course that I've been talking about since 2 years ago.
No, not yet

8. to apply lotion before I sleep, everyday.

Almost...

9. to get new cheap bag for work.
Yes, got one =)

10. to get more clothes so I don't look like I'm wearing same shirt to work every single day, but different color!!!

Yes, I got some
11. to learn to be more fashionable, with the ting ting tang tang stuff???
Yes, I got new bracelet and some necklace and rings from Lily.

12. to appreciate my friends more... my true friends... I know I've ruined some relationships due to my mood swings and all...

I hope this is a yes.

13. to blog about something more interesting maybe??? I know you find my blog damn dead bored.
No

14. to join gym.
Yes

15. to love you more =)

Yes, that's why I'm like that now... =)

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Love-a-Lot's Birthday 2010 (18sx)

Why do I name myself Love-a-Lot at the very beginning? Cos... I love being loved and love to love... =/

The year end curse has gotten worse this year, but still... Something sweet came up unexpectedly, which I would like to share... I know, too many about Kevin for the past 3 years... Now, it's about me... and people who still care...

On the 3rd December 2010, it's my niece's Full Moon Party + Mum's Birthday party... Kevin did turned up, which I would like to sincerely thank him for such a great heart to my family and Chloe. Though he only left the gift to my bro and gone. I didn't even see his shadow...

So... I reached home, with hundreds of people greeted me "Where's Kevin? Where's ur bf?"... I ran up to my room, locked... and cried... Asking God why would he do this to me? And left all the questions for me to answer. Left all the loneliness and doubts for me to suffer...

The "Duo" then came trying to bring fun to my Friday night, they were laughing and teasing Miffy looks funny and all... Knowing that they just wanna see me smile... I braved up and smiled...

We went down and ate some of the delicious food served and off we go to the club.

Costmetic can't even cover the crying eyes... Miffy, muacks!

On the way, the jam was soooooo bad... we were stucked for an hour at Batu Caves, thanks to the "transformers"

Thanks to Nic who managed to got us, buy 1 free 1 even if it's past midnight...

Slightly tipsy

The girls made fun of Nic

And they made us take picture

This is the FMLest part, that fella brought the Flaming Lamborghini and I was really drunk after that... THANK U! (no thank u actually)

And so they made me finished it, I wanted to but it taste super yucky!!!

So he helped and look at the face "Errr now I know how it tastes"

Blur eyes, still got "longkang"... Hahaha...

Lily my love

I'm so in loveeeeeeeeee ahaha

And so, thanks to Nic for the Ribena... Cannot go on drinking alcohol anymore...

And we got hotter and steamy too =/

We lick... Okay.. I have to lick bottles now... Cos I'm single...n

I wanna kick this girl...

Ooohh lala...nnnn

I wasn't "sucking" but... Whatever it is la... Say more wrong more!

Lovely!!! Awww....

Lily had to drive my car as I was swinging like a monkey in the car...

Blast the music at 22... Normally the loudest I can bear is 12... =/

Trying to camwhore neng neng pic but end up laughing like mad

Fail AGAIN

I have another 3 celebrations, will post it all up... SOON, stay tuned!

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The Friends and The Trust

It's sad to see you like this, my heart aches... Wake up Kevin... Wake up from all the mistakes that you've done in the past.

Learn to appreciate people around you!!! What's wrong with you???

My friend is not here to help you if you don't appreciate her help!! She is so well known for her good temper, and yet... You managed to make her angry! Can you please wake up??? She only talk to you for a short period also cannot tahan your temper, I've lived with your temper for close to 3 years =)

Another way round, she sees me more than you do, and still... She never give up on our friendship.

Whose temper is bad... It's obvious!

She choose not to tell me earlier because she still trying to trust and don't want me to know the "real" you, you are the Kevin that I've been telling her, good, nice, friendly, loyal and honest... But she is tired and upset with you also... She's not even a friend of yours, why do you choose to tell her bad things about me? Most of them are not true... You want people to agree with you? Sympathy you? And hate me???

Friendship and trust don't come easy, not one word will change people's mind on me... The trust I gained from her is so much more than one word can spoil it.

I choose to still avoid the truth of why you left me... Though I know the real reason is you are now the OWNER of GT PROSHOP @ SUNWAY... Capable, bright future and famous... I want to leave good memories...

I want to keep ONLY good memories, the Kevin who has been honest, simple, loving, appreciative and caring...

Not the person who tell how much money I've spent, not paying phone bills and have no rights to ask for a transfer now (its u who want to be my main line... I can afford RM20/mth... No need use your subline. I can live without C&K heels, but it's you who is ego and want to show people how much u can spend on me. I was very independent, not close with my family, never use skin care/cosmetic... It's you... Who started all these and now... You talk bad about me to my friends...

You think yourself if what you are doing is right thing to do...

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ღ Wednesday, December 08, 2010

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Finally, I've come to a stage whereby I start to understand

... that it all happened cos... He has his own business, as what I predicted much more earlier before all these things happened.

He is exposed to more options and confidence level eventually boost-up.

Who is Penny Ong when he can find 100x better girl than her? Right?

So I stopped crying, I stop all the thinking that I've been having for the past 10 days.

I started to accept the fact that, he's just bored of me...

I might be one of the facts that caused this, I encouraged him with all my heart and soul, to do something that brings benefit to his future.

I once told him when he was really really thinking to do it or not... even if one day you've succeeded and you've forgotten me, it's okay. So long, dream achieved, and you are successful then, all that we are struggling now (back then) won't gone wasted.

I rest assured that I'll be here, thru good times and bad times, and pray for his success.

I'm still doing it.

One of days in the past week, I wanted to ruin his life so badly, I wanted to curse him. But I hold back, I told myself that I can't do this him. No matter what the reason is, I can't do this... Maybe I'm still unable to think of out the box, but with so many supports and concerns from my friends, I should be able to move on sooner than I thought.

Call me weak... Call me stupid... This is me...

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ღ Tuesday, December 07, 2010

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1 week has passed, the wound is still fresh

How are you lately? It seems forever since I last saw you... And it seems so long ago I heard your calm and soft voice calling me... Lao Po...

Hope you are doing good.

She has told me what you've told her, yes, it's indeed very very painful.

Finally I know, in these 3 years, everything was not real, it's all fake.. Care, Love, Concern, Attention, and Promises.. are all fake...

I have no choice but to admit... I got fooled... by you

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2 in a row Birthday Celebration

I never feel so precious in my entire life before... I spent most of my birthday with my bfs...

I admit, I always give exclusive priority to my bf... But, I'm so lucky that this year, when I met an end of my 3 years relationship, all my friends came up to surprise me with all sorts of things...

You name it that a boy could do, my girls can do so much better!

Flowers? Check
Pendant? Check
Cosmetic? Check
Body Care? Check
Surprise Birthday celebration? Check

I didn't expect anything, but the presence of them are just as precious as anything can be.

I know they are all tired, I can see from the face, but they were never giving up in entertaining me.

We ate, we drank...

Though I didn't leave with a smile but I put all your efforts in my heart and I will remember this forever.

I dunno how to thank you all for the wonderful "everything"...

Someone unexpectedly sms'ed me to concern about my failed relationship, I'm glad too, thanks =) ... Not new target but who knows right? haha

I think I will really really learn to start a new life, I will learn to let go, and start hating and cursing him to suffer for the rest of his life... No, just kidding.... He will get his "bou yeng"... I trust God will know how to treat people like this...

Good Night!

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ღ Monday, December 06, 2010

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I Had Enough.... Thanks to Lily...

I finally wake up now...

Though I might still feels sad and all, but this is it, my limit on you.

You are such an asshole, FUCKER!

Go on, live with lies and sorrows...

I'm real, I'm honest, and my people are around me when I need them... Look at yourself NOW!

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6:22 PM

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